long time, no speak.

It has been quite awhile since my last post, and life for my clan has changed DRAMATICALLY.
I'll explain..

We visited Ohio for New Year's 2011, to be with my family for the holiday. Next year, it'll be Christmas with them, for sure, they've never seen Cade on the holiday. Anyways, we never went back to Michigan. It was as if my whole life there had been devastating, and not only was I suffering emotionally, my marriage was suffering, which means so was our relationship to our child. It was TERRIBLY difficult leaving people that you love. Especially people who like to see their ideas for your life work before your own. I haven't been respected by my husband's family, or even welcomed as his wife since that day, and I don't really think I ever will be again. It's ok too. I'm quite a catch, and their son sees that, that's all that matters.

Cade Xander is ONE. April 14th, he hit an actual year of age. I wasn't as devasted as I thought, but it was something I'll probably only feel comfortable with once a year... how convenient.

MY MARRIAGE, is growing. It's harder than anything I've ever had to do, and a lot of times, I'd love to take the world's advice and give up on everything. Just go back to being alone, and living. And then I remember how blessed I am to even have my husband. He is a wonderful, wonderful man, and continues to show me the worth that I have, along with being such an awesome and hands-on father with Cade. I'm sticking in it, regardless of the broken-hearted people I associate with. It's just not something you can give up on, and something that I refuse to.

We rent an adorable home, on a whole acre of land, flat land. I'm so excited for Cade to have an area to crawl around and play in. It's the country life I wanted, with the convenience of a city super close. 2 bed, 1 bath, with a killer kitchen and STAINLESS STEEL appliances, which included, is a dishwasher.

Drew is currently "unemployed" I guess you could say. He was terminated 2 days ago without reason, and without fault. I see a storm coming, which sucks because normally that includes getting someone to fight with you, aka representation. Spending money to make money sucks, but he deserves the job he has, and we're fighting to keep it.

I'm different than I was yesterday, and different than I'll be tomorrow, and that's perfectly okay with me. I'm growing up, just like everyone else.

much love always.